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Anguished Lullaby of Pain

escaping nightmares


These feelings are too ugly to write about.
These times are too awful to keep in memory

How dare I ask you to sleep.

Close yours eyes and wait.
I will sing you a lullaby of pain

Breathless weeping, vexatious faint

Firing neurons twitching brain

Lumping scorching jugular veins

Heart throbbing accelerated rate

Blaring headache itching ache

Contracted sight speech impaired

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Evil Is Fun


Swallowed; my energy is drawn
I can’t feel my feet. My clothes are soaked
My heart locking beats; I’m at my dirtiest and it’s fun
I’ll just get rid of these clothes after I’m done
People wont know what before I had on
I’m sick of everyone telling me how clean I should be
So much hate.  Now I want  to see grief in others eyes
Let me be the judge.  I’ll change my clothes after
A malevolent God where  life can be unfair

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Lucid Nightmare



Time spawning… Forever lasting…

Something… Something

Forward acting… Into a universe

Clumping matter with balanced energies

Something… Something…

Life started temporarily

Something… Something… Something

This amazing brain is thinking, and consciousness lived to wonder

Born pushing life’s short end

I’m sorry that you’re alive but glad it’s temporary,

So we don’t have to work forever

I knew it just happens so it’s not helpful to wonder how it ends

I have nothing to say

You have nothing to do

That seems to be the worst part of being alive

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How to Survive the Loneliness of Happiness, Material, Love, and Luck


 You would have to face and deal with loneliness from four aspects that relate and affect each other:

1- Thoughts

2- Sexuality

3- Physicality

4- Existence



1- Brain Thoughts:  With loneliness everyday, you will deal and see few and numbered things only around you, such as walls, trees, dirt, air, food..  etc.   So your brain will push to create its own imaginations, nightmares, dreams and thoughts to the point where those imaginations and nightmares will start to matter to you just as much if not more than your everyday reality, that consists of seeing walls, trees and food.     So in conclusion, your brain will face and deal with its own nonphysical ideas, illusions, comedy, life stories and nightmares almost as much if not more than everyday’s limited physical reality like handling things, getting up, eating food..etc

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Quantum computers: End of Moore-law classic transistors

Image Source:  33rdsquare.com


When the p-n-p atoms, that work as transistor in classic chips, get to the size of 5,3 or less atoms (between the emitter and collector), whose work is controlled classically by voltage gates to allow software programing to control either electrons in/out/amplified, are now affected by the quantum super positioning of spins (whatever thing is used: could be p-doped electron/polar photons /molecules polarity/condenses/ ion traps/ or just the nucleolus of the p-doped silicon atom itself (or carbon diamonds in the future?)) . Since they are now in entanglement and in quantum tunneling superposition, expect the nearest elections (that used to travel across to the collector end in a controlled way) to respond to those quantum spins thus behave much more unexpectedly and effectively, as if it was telling the electron to go and not go in the same time (0 and 1 simultaneously)  making ‘n’ qbits equal to 2^n classic bits.

Why are those quantum spins weird causing ‘n’ qbits equal to 2^n bits? Because the up/down and down/up spin states are not stable neither determinant; however they are just opposite and unknown.

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Dark Stuff Dancing in Dark Spacetime


Image: That grey dot represent the amount of Matter in the universe, about 5%,  while the rest has been dancing in the Dark around us.


Well,  there was some energy, that we assume canceled and cooled from BANGBANG or some infinite energy fluctuations that took place in a spacetime 13.8 billions yrs ago,  btw I also need you to accept that spacetime only moves forward.

Now let me tell you about the accidents that happened after that energy cooled and canceled into a configuration that allowed galaxies to be formed in spacetime:

*4.9%(matter) of that energy gravitated in spacetime and used other forces and things to turn into atoms and galaxies,
while 26.8%(dark matter) of it was energy only and only to gravitate in spacetime which let that 4.9% form galaxies around it,
the rest 68.3%(dark energy) of that energy was only and only to stretch spacetime to let that galaxies form in the universe.

*%Accuracy gets improved with recent year measurements.*


I respect physicists who say something along ‘Expect Dark Matter to be a new class of particles or to have a complicated nature not just a gravity energy that doesn’t interact with anything else.’

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Philosophy , Religion and Physics Walked Into a Bar …



Source article: abyss.uoregon.edu/~js/lectures/early_univ.html



Talking about our reality and why some people are wrong while others are crazy.

God:Philosophy:Religion: Stand for good morality ideology”
Nature:Physics:  Stand for universe casual determinism logic”

In the last century, more so than previous ones, Theoretical Physics took the spotlight explaining to mankind everything in our reality using scientific evidence and the logic of causality.

Yet even in that context, Physics shut up when we ask why time is only moving forward,  or equivalently why a thing instead of nothing before way in first place?

So Atheist Philosophy and Theist Religion visited Theoretical Physics:Physics saw Religion and immediately wanted to leave the room, but Philosophy held Physics by the hand and begged for the sake of existence to take this conversion. Still Physics wanted to make sure that they don’t mention time reversal paradoxes that cannot  happen;  So parallel time travels that decrease the universe entropy or violate its second law of thermodynamics were not allowed.

Atheist Philosophy considers reality timeless but it accepts the existence of random unique events to work in physics (e.g.  Singularity, to DeSitter Inflation stability ..etc).    Without existence of time,  infinite possibilities  already happened(ing) while our uniform ticking of forward-time-oriented awareness in this existence is explained by experiencing an illusion due being a special energy ball in a spacetime fabric with tight potential wells.  Regardless of one time only being experienced, there are multiple journeys therefore cannot be one purpose;   Meaning different outcomes are possible for every possible multiverse existence.

On the other hand, Theist Religion considers reality tuned by exact frequencies that give life to a universe with atom configurations and timed existence but it accepts the existence of concepts that are infinite to work in physics (e.g. God, Infinite energy, infinite spacetime ..etc.). Read the rest of this page »

Humans Imperfections: Colonizing Mars

Image source article:  reilly.nd.edu/outreach/emerging-ethical-dilemmas-and-policy-issues-in-science-and-technology-2015/astronaut-bioethics/



– Earth atmosphere is valued at $4,500 trillions.
– Mars will take 100,000 years before Mars atmosphere turns better than Earth.
– Even after 100,000 years,  Polluted Earth -vs- Transform Mars  is still a 10-0 matchup for humans living suitability.

Considering climate change and energy renewability to be the main endangering threats facing humans,   Mars colonization is seen as the most necessary next step for humans exploration and survival.  

Mars is full of gases, CO2, and even O2 .  Rich geology and a heavy candidate to find  bio fossils or amino-acid life due the existence of flowing liquid water in its past.    They are not trying to colonize Mars to let people live there;  They hope to establish something there that would bring resources to Earth  in all types of methods harvesting Mars’ for its science, fuel and water or  asteroids and rays that don’t come Earth.

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Dying When Our Jobs Are Done


I’m going crazy, would it matter if I told you?
A world of misery, will anything change if I tell you?

Wide awake until I sleep tonight
So alive until I die this life

Emotions all over the place
Brain is shellshocked

Meaning that I play this game 
Passing time pretending to live

Hoping that it goes by in peace
Traveling the least path of pain
Closer to death letting entropy increase

Talking myself  out how awful it feels

It’s Dejav… damn not again…


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BERNIE OR BUST (Previously ” Choices in order are: Bernie … Hilary … Trump …”)

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Updated Edit:

The more I think about it, the more I realize that   maybe we shouldn’t stay silent if our time on earth is limited.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that   I’m almost sure I’d rather work with a narcissistic-bigoted idiot than a corrupt-promise-breaking-lying devil.

The more I think about it, the more I realize that   knowing something is wrong and evil while staying silent is worse than not knowing and acting stupid. 



Mr. and Mrs. Clinton are strong people who hurt the most weakened lives during tragedies and worst vulnerable situations.

Mrs. Clinton’s actions range from defending child rapists, to supporting war lords and inhuman oligarchs who abuse their nations people and resources.
Mr. and Mrs. Clinton are conscious-less devils.
The only way justice may wash the dirty money and blood on their hands, is if they were held accountable for their actions: Found guilty, imprisoned for life and charged with billions of dollars.

The only other conclusion left is that we live in a world that doesn’t have a law that serves justice or humanity.

We have a law that is so weak that it only applies to poor people and bends down to every entity with power and money regardless of its evil.    I have no respect for a world with such law or anyone who supports it.

End of edit:    It’s Bernie or Bust,   but if the world is stupid enough to accept Trump, then that’s at least Darwinian democracy .


Trump wants to re-send military to Iraq and with Russia seize the oil there.  Oh, and instead of spending  $15 billions to keep Mexicans behind a wall, you start sending humans to Mars.

Hilary, is corrupt and she rigged the elections.  She will keep the rich richer and poor poorer. She will change nothing as a heartless crime doll for  wallstreet and corporate America.

Both Trump and Hilary wont change energy and wealth resources.  Neither wants to save the climate change or do something about wealth inequality that’s been the reasons for mass immigration and wars on earth.

Bernie Sanders wants to invite all poor and rich to solve everything together.  His plans constantly address demands from country leaders and wealthiest elites. He wants to tackle wealth inequality and climate change  more than anyone.  

Why do you think third world country “refugees” migrate to US and EU? Because they’re poor?  Maybe it’s not safe and wars are there?

   Bernie Sanders is the choice for the sake of future of humanity. 

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Existence’s Best Thing; Love



It’s my saddest time of the year

Just before all my birthdays turn out lonely

In the middle of a paloroid existence

Jumping in and out of so many colors

I’m heartbroken and  you’re too pretty

I can’t fall in love with you

Stop being nice

I can’t believe you kissed me

Left me with empty emotions

My everyday feels like yesterday

Now has even begun to feel like tomorrow

That goes on forever that goes on forever

Life is fast; happy or sad it wont last

 I’m used to misery

My white world is grey

Silence after every spoken word

Meaning what was said doesn’t matter

Colorous  momentarily…

Some day, someone will care

Because I don’t think it was a dream but unreal….

That’s just unfair

I keep a lot of things to myself

I wish I don’t forget these….

How can I forget existence’s best thing

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Brain-Happiness Adaptation

Satisfactions -vs- Expectations




something similar is experienced by humans jumping and changing experiences – or- accelerating in frames of happiness.

A relative experience point of view, because happiness is so important to the brain that it would have its own reference to each individual.

The brain is good at surviving through shaping the interactions that result in happiness how redefining what they are or how they are triggered.

I believe that’s the reason children can adapt through touch psychological environments at the cost of whatever they become later on.

Because of human brains are limed and the same, as well as because of the universe entropy and life randomness, there come to be two types of happiness of experiencing happiness imagined as Sinusoidal waves:

First rule, is that happiness occurs and would only gravitate to its receivers.

Second rule, is that it doesn’t affect or matter to anything or anyone but the receiver.

The two types are, in summary: 

1- Expected satisfactions 

2- Satisfying expectations.


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