Can you be my counselor tonight?
I want to tell you something now that I may not tell you at any other time.
I can’t stand up anymore.
Watch me throw myself on the ground
A lesser human
Arrogant and useless
Obnoxious and repulsive
I’ve always been lonely so leave me alone now.
So freaking ugly don’t take my photo man.
Asking about how I’m doing as if you care
…. I cant wait to die
Those voices I couldn’t keep to myself,
Simply mean nothing to everyone else.
Thus no one cares about mental illness.
Just in mind experienced:
“Go kill yourself! Shortcut the BS.”
Im just so fkin tired
Dancing around with the wrong frequency
Asking for people to hold my hand and walk me through
Let me know when I’m going to fall
I’m tired but then again, time is not going to stop now
So I’m trying to laugh to distract myself until I’m tired again
I laugh so loud so that I don’t get to hear my problems.
Moving around because I have to.
Sick of seeing only ugly memories pop
Sick of people who worsen my depression
Lists of responsibilities, that’s not my life
It’s been like I’m in a minus living.
Am I allowed to ask for help
I just want to tell someone I’m feeling sad,
pray for my depression cycle to be reversed,
and sunlight to be washing a pretty shore instead
Ideas to think, but forget their meaning the moment I start writing them down.
Dreams to enjoy, but forget them the moment I live them again.
A lot of times, it’s this you, just like now you became mortal because I described you.
Don’t close the door…!!!
I really wanna tell someone I’m so lonely,
but not you because I don’t know how you feel
One minute ago you didn’t want to know
I hate everyone. I’m awful negative now
The counselor was a dumb actor.
f#@k it hurt my stomach talking to him!
not sincere at all. !!
My dear bipolar opposite,
How would you help me
When I leave nothing for you to work with
I’m sorry, but no time for that
I need to breath and you don’t exist
I’m here. It is not where I wanted,
Off course it’s worse than where I could’ve been,
But it is better than all those effing places you see.!!
With a lot of chokes and cries
Beaten up emotionally this time
Breathing in silence again
Isolation and sadness I gain
Distract me.. impolitely asking.
Hope they go away
Whatever blocks their pain.
I’m sick of being single.
I can’t be blend in; neither explain
wistful smiles and wrinkled tuxedos.
memories and love of no one.
plans and thoughts of nowhere.
All suck proportionally with time.
I wish so freaking honestly someone cares about my emotions.
living to reason why there cannot be one. depression
That never made sense to me. ever.
Because I hate everyone, but I hate myself more .
I don’t know whose idea it was
To vent writing because this isn’t working out.
I started to hate love because love’s absence is no mercy.
It never stayed; just waves ripping through my heart.