Should you back out
Years in repair for my best act
Im not stopping now
I can’t stop right now
Every moment with you is my best of all time
Im living an eternal paradise
So Im running into the sun
Pushing everyone around
With love burning down
So fast to stay alive
I will run faster tonight
Then heal back in your arms
When you say everything is fine
keep me there
where I wanna stay
I swear I don’t care
if time stops now
what if i told you
I turn all girls down just so that
you notice me alone with one too many
and it’s only you I’m staring at. don’t lie
you see me staring you as much I’m stared down
too pretty and your eyes are freaking wow
so tell me do you wanna .. at all
Stop trying to wake me from this dream I duwanna
What’s your name
hold my hand and waste my minutes
and yes I want you if I can
I love you darn I don’t throw this around
though I know I am just venting about
the way my heart was burnt out
because no one ever came to me like that
so tell me tonight
that you love me tight
and you want me bad
all that crap
fall in love then identity swap
nameless love and all that crap
Stress boiling up my mind. This voice’s piercing so loud
I wanna talk it out, share my thoughts loud and cry
If I ever meant something, then I need you now by my side
Baby hug me, let me vent. This sh*t hurts Im not lyin
Bipolar lonely time, no meds or love to get by
When you feel like breaking down,
and you think you should share right now
But if you’re gonna read what I’m gonna say here then please, don’t click on that now, because I haven’t myself. I just wanted to comment on that statement only, or fact that some 85 “humans” own as much as other 3.5 billions. My 5 Initial/Quick Thoughts:
1- Who are these people? Are they entitled to this money? Are they using it, spending it, earning it, employing, working and investing it legally?
In case of admirable positions, high authority figures, and ones who fulfill themselves to operate that amount of material fairy to other fellow humans, achieving promises to many, saving lives, helping families and individual better their lives and all other forms of charity, then we’ve nothing but admiration, gratefulness, honor and love to give to those people and we look up for what they did. An example is The Pledge of Bill Gates, Warren Buffet
In case of corruption, whether any type or possibility of it being political, governments, public services, conspiracies, thefts… etc, then negative thought #2 comes along:
2- how do you feel that your life standard by definition, the earning-vs-cost of life, is one that more than 4.1 hundred thousands of people share?
No welcome to therapy
Sit there and complain about it.
Feel how slow time is.
How cold, how boring, how long.
Relapse and fight it.
“Can I share with you please I’m lost.
I’ve been tearing myself over and don’t know how to put it.
but no therapy, I either vent to a wall or write you to laugh at me say it.
I’d put on my best dress and dance.
Going to my notherapy session where no one talks about love.
Trying to relate but I don’t know if I can. Belonging everywhere unfound.”
I remember being too stressed about life. I would walk up to the councilor all tight.
One too many thoughts on my mind, forcing the first word out of his mouth
I’d not speak at all, “relax, is everything alright?”
Say a random thing then take it back. It’s obvious I’m worked up and ready to cry
the moment I start thinking. I’m so exhausted I don’t know why I hate living so much.
Unhappiness for life, I wish I was lying. Looking at him dead in the eye like I wish I could change it.
Here’s the game, gonna only say it once…
I’m suicidal, I’m depressed, I’m fucked up.
People with my history are criminals or ones who killed themselves.
In my mind, no one deserves kindness because I never had such thing.
To not be I just pretend; smile on because I’m playing the game.
A point of no return in my brain where it may shut love or go insane.
You lose if you get there. I wish you knew where I’ve been.
Racism, you made me hate my race.
Sexism, you made me hate being a male.
Hate what I didn’t choose and couldn’t change.
You live once, and I’m living with self hate.
Wish I could rip out my skin,
cut my genitals and cover my face
What makes you prejudge me till I die.
Life is ugly and so am I.