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Vent To The Stars

Jealous of the shining stars in the galaxy;

A beaten comet with a tail of tears

How come no other star is lonely?

I see them all dancing with peers

No other where to say it but here. Wish the day passes by

Wish I just fall asleep. Unbreakable boring theme

Hands on cheeks; miserable sorry being

Unpleasantly clear; unworthy of belief

Kids having fun as if pleasure was real

Incessant extremes my soul should leave

Restless past, harrowing peace;

Abraded flashbacks, relentless fears

Compulsive erratic epileptic writings!  Anonymous dear!

In a public site for no one to read

Faking a smile trying to heal. 

Trying to dance with insides that bleed

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He Wants The D , Give Him The Death Penalty!

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 pic source: Stefanie Faucher

This is not about killing the gays or their rights;  it’s about criminal psychopaths who are sentenced to death.

How many times did you hear the victim’s family say “It’s kind of a closure. but not a tear; I saw his face at the sentencing, he was plain, cold; had no expressions.  no guilt; evil it was like staring at the white devil. …etc ”   Well,   off course he had no expressions.   He’s a psychopath. He’s incapable of feeling any remorse or empathy.  He will actually go to his death sentence with a clear conscious thinking you all misjudged him and feeling the purest forms of utmost innocence and irreproachability.

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Power Shuts Down Empathy

  Neuroscientists have found evidence to suggest feelings of power shut down a system in our brain that helps with empathy.

Neuroscientists have found evidence to suggest feelings of power shut down a system in our brain that helps with empathy.

But empathy may be gained when you exclude that person from your life.  However in the same time,  like an addictive status of a drug, that individual will seek power in an environment where he can use subordinates and less powerful people and not be around people who he can’t use.

This is something I knew was true all the time; I went through it personally.   I dont’ feel like sharing my experiences and stories about it, but I was shocked to read its outcome this way especially the last line about that new study.

The site is also linking to the whole study in a pdf

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Weak Existence

Not conscious of life.
Numbed by its disappointments.
A weak existence, one dimensional and timed.

Talking to myself, hearing my echo. Not leaving my bed.

Aware of how I talk to distract myself and experiencing how I don’t think.

Pushing it forward, but it isn’t moving.

Sick of breathing, sick of eating; sick of being.

Am I truly stuck?  I’m not panicking.

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I’m not loving life,  because it didn’t love back.

Sick of traveling roads, they all have no ends and leave me lost.

Sick of saying ‘I’,  but I’m still saying I.

Sick of no one caring,  am I allowed to complain?

Always nervous, I can’t remember the last time laughing.

Reality everyday, when can I smile.

Time is still ticking, memories and breathes passing.

Should I sing or write to make them less awful?

Suddenly, I have no emotions. I don’t know if it’s awesome. Read the rest of this page »

Paralysis of depression


Timeline testifies.

Coping mechanism.

Checking for happiness.

Wasting time whispering

And less time thinking..

Less time thinking…

Less time thinking…


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Everything Patterns The Same

Every behavior and everything has an analogy in life, business, physics, math, biology/physiology, neuroscience, psychology, astronomy, philosophy, sociology … social economy, communication science, policies of different kinds,  interactions and games, even wasting time seeking hobbies or playing video games.. just in every form of interaction.

You can always find valuable lessons from the universe on any scale and level to have an extremely similar analogy in one’s life.

Einstein speech : The common language of science:

Without exaggeration, I can write 100 pages about this subject if I chose to talk about its details and examples.  I wonder now if my inspiration for writing “Too Much Abstract Is Useless” was String Theory;  You connect the dots.  On the other hand, Quantum Physics affect my understandings of motivations and will.  To give an easy example in a dumb awful way to a 5 yr old is the Double Split experiment.  Perspective one describes the electron defiant to our intervention to understand it, that it resists to be detected and thus goes for the (lamer-get-off-me-bruh) form closer  to its state when /how it was detected (particle/ wave).  All meanwhile, perspective two describes that it actually travels through time to gain uncertainty, and that it absorbs and reflects every possible vibration of energy to exist for your freaking majesty.!! Read the rest of this page »

Why is Everything Lame and Expected

Your brain falls right in the middle. source “http://primaxstudio.com/stuff/scale_of_universe/


Why does conscious constantly consume existence?

Does everything make sense because it does? or because it’s the sense we came to accept according to how our minds work?

Is it because causality answers every why in the universe we live in? or is it because other whys take other causalities that don’t exist to us?



“Entropy is hidden information; hidden because the structures are too small and too numerous to keep track of.” Leonard Susskind lecture1: Boltzmann and the Arrow of Time





Physics:  The spacetime collapses to move inward until stops at the singularity in blackholes.  As time is yet to be emerged in that state (during no observer/ mathematical state) , it is energy with one less dimension (time),  inactive in the spacetime continuum, its mere data that is preserved on the blackhole horizon surface.  So equivalent to expressing the geometric entropy of a blackhole by its horizon’s area instead of being volume in our time-emergent world, the way that energy is spent in spacetime again when it goes in reverse.  as if the hologram we’re living is in the minus direction of time.  In other words, spacetime moves in the opposite direction except from our small occupation of it in order for all energy forms to have a potential to go for.

Mathematics:  The equal sign representing the flow direction from ‘purpose’ to ‘need’, equivalent to ‘function’ or ‘frequency’ to  ‘potential’  is always revisable.  Just like when you give any direction to an electron journey in an electrical circuit.  It works when we throw the numbers, but the equal sign doesn’t tell how the entropy is involved.

Philosophy: Know The Story to Have a Purpose (minus and positive time direction).  Just like life mainly absorbs happiness from what is offered with the exceptions of moments that require to achieve functions with respect to ‘others’.  Happiness is moved toward spending instead of being absorbed in order for those moments to happen.  It’s a change of the flow direction for the sake of the bigger image.

when something happens equally you can’t tell the order of the ’cause’ and ‘event’.  However, for it to have a purpose then that thing also answers the question “Why?  and for the universe to have a purpose”

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Fast or Slow Days


I used to never go to sleep, and when I do I can’t wait to wake up.

Now sleep is the best part of my day, and I wake up just waiting to sleep.

I can’t tell if time is too fast or too slow,  to be honest who knows.

Too alone to realize how fast my days go.

Time just hurts when I give it more thoughts.

Let it pass, let it go.  Time is relative, and I’m relevant to one no more.

Merely a physiological being;  I’m numbing my emotions for good.

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When your hands are cold,

I will bring you closer.

All my other writings are sad… I’m so bipolar

But for you it’s only love…  Loveeee forever!

Let the sun scatter itself and spacetime make us older!

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