Can you be my counselor tonight?
I want to tell you something now that I may not tell you at any other time.
I can’t stand up anymore.
Watch me throw myself on the ground
A lesser human
Arrogant and useless
Obnoxious and repulsive
I’ve always been lonely so leave me alone now.
So freaking ugly don’t take my photo man.
Asking about how I’m doing as if you care
…. I cant wait to die
Those voices I couldn’t keep to myself,
simply mean nothing to everyone else.
Thus no one cares about mental illness.
Just in mind experienced:
“Go kill yourself! Shortcut the BS.”
Hours flipping in bed with insomnia
No one asking for days,
No one cares
Does it get any lonelier
Because I’m numb to it
Beyond sad I’m sick of this.
Instead of suicide notes
I screamed and fought.
complaining about how lonely it gets
with the exact same words I used before
Disgusting Dejavus.. life is scary
I think I’m just distracting myself to let time pass by.
The purpose of life is not to wait the clock tick for us to do our job, is it?
Another day to waste alone